I was put here to be a leader but I noticed to lead you must learn how to follow. Leading is a tremendous task and along the way, you’ll get passed over, frowned upon, taken for granted and under appreciated but a leader doesn’t care. We lead by example and we share our knowledge so that no one gets left behind. We meticulously plot our course and never do we stray because we know our role and we play the part not once questioning our mission.

If you find leadership to be easy then you’re not leading accordingly, it’s a hard job because there is no recognition for being the chosen. Heaven is your reward and that only comes with death, your purpose in life is to ensure that the ones who follow will receive your leadership and never question your motive.

Not everyone was meant to lead an that doesn’t mean you’re not capable it just means that you have another role in life and maybe that role is to motivate the one you choose to follow. We the chosen to take the role as leader should not use our powers for evil an just because you know people look to you for leadership doesn’t mean you take them for granted.

We the chosen to lead must always hold ourselves at a higher standard and always reach for the stars to ensure the people who follow get a chance to see there is no limit when you keep fighting. If you choose to lead by example you will never have to explain your motive. A leader commands respect and is always ready to step in or step up.

Leading Example Accepting Delegation.
Learning Everyday And Doing. Learning Educating Advising Diligently.


Lost & Found

For a long time in my life I was lost. With no one to feel my pain I was holding things in at all cost.

Feeling like the world was on my shoulders I was beat and ready to give up, lost contact with the world around me not being bothered with trying to keep in touch.

Stressed out and worried about it all I had no resolve, the problems kept building and I didn’t handle my business at all.

I was lost in the dark with no light in sight, laying down every weapon I had because I no longer chose to fight.

Knowing what was right but not applying it to my life, killing myself slowly I might as well just got a knife.

This was no way to live I told myself something has got to give, so I dropped to my knees and surrendered screaming God please let me live.

I put it all in His hands and then I began to stand, motivated to do better I started sticking to His plan.

God blessed this man so it was no excuse For my behavior, I started to live again and all the credit goes to my savior.

He showed me the light and gave me the choice to save my soul, I was put here for a reason and I humbly started to except my role.

He is in control and I’m just a mold of His image, I will not fold because of the mistakes it’s just a blemish.

I’ve found my way and to my dismay I was wasting a great gift, that’s why I started to be a better man all the while beginning my uplift.

Now I’m in control no wavering in my directions, no conflicting or addicting contradicting demonstrations.

The Lord is my Shepard and I shall not want for anything, I live for my family and God leads my team.

I’m no longer lost I’ve found my way through God’s, mercy, I no longer question my direction because nothing on earth can hurt me.

Really Man!!!

You want to be a man but you still play childish games, you want to be the man but you bring nothing with you but pain. What is your aim and your issue do you not want to be a man, or is it that you’re a follower and don’t want to be looked up to or stand. It’s too many of us that have no virtues or value, our stock is plummeting fast and my question is how you?

How do you call yourself a man when you have responsibilities you don’t take care of? How can you be a man when you don’t stand for anything, you live with your parents or off of someone else’s dime and then you want to convince me?

It’s hard to be a man and especially if you’re a good one. People take you for granted and overlook you because you don’t carry that chip on your shoulder. You know the one that makes people feel like you owe them something!!! They spend they’re days mad at the world because they chose to sit rather than stand, walk instead of run or just get by rather than want more.

Men get a bad rap because of the choice many of us made by thinking with our dicks instead of our heart or brains, we get excited because we sometimes get hunted and not have to be the hunter. We see fast living as a way of living and it just keeps us dying, we choose to die for the moment without thinking about living for the memories.

All men are not dogs and temptation is out here but a real man knows his worth. He will pass on every temptation because he respects himself and a real man isn’t tempted often because he doesn’t put himself in those situations on purpose.

As a man myself I would say that good men are most definitely hard to find but you should be careful because, real man have fallen victim to fraudulent relationships and now he’s a sheep in wolves clothing. They are perpetrating because they don’t want to be hurt. Real men have a lot on their shoulders constantly, they want so intensely to do the right thing just can’t decipher how.

To al my female readers I say; “the real man you are searching or praying for, will only reveal himself when you have found yourself in all of its impurities.”

To all the men; “you will get out of it whatever percent of yourself you give to it.”


Is this the place where God resides and is this the place where love doesn’t hide.

Can you look at the one you’re with and say this is my forever or are you passing the time all the while searching for something better.

If you’re honest with yourself can you look in the mirror and see the man/woman you thought you’d be, or are you still in search of the person God intended the world to see.

Eternity is a long ways away at least it sounds that way, but on this earth eternity for some could be this very day.

They say nothing last forever but I think that is a lie because if you love something or someone you’ll hold onto them even after you die.

You can look as far as your eyes can see and know that there’s so much more than that, but when you look into someone else’s eyes why can’t you see the one whose intensity you match.

To eternity, to infinity and beyond, I want to be eternally and infinitely among, the ones you remember and celebrate even after I’m gone.

Getting Personal

I don’t express personal things that often, however everything I write is either my own personal opinion or my interpretation of the facts. I’ve been shying away from this topic and I’ve gone back and forth with myself every time I come to WordPress to express whatever topic I choose. This is something very close to my soul so I intend on telling the absolute truth.

One day almost 25 years ago to the day, my life changed; my best friend died. Consider that I was only 12 years old back then so imagine how this effected me, not only was he my best friend at that time, he was my father. Without sugar coating it, apart me died that day too.

I went from talking to silence and from sad to angry. I thought to myself, how could he leave me? Didn’t he know I needed him? I still had so many questions so what now. I missed him so much that it altered my way of loving, I no longer wanted to be attached to people. It made me shy and apprehensive about saying I love you. It made me wonder and feel like nothing was forever.

As I grew into a man I felt like there was no one around to teach me how to be a man. I confused being a man with being grown which still made me a child. I handled my business poorly and also my relationships. I knew on the inside that I didn’t like the man I had become, then I met a new best friend.

My new best friend was about 5 years older and had been through some life changing events of his own. He saw that by all means and purposes I was a good guy but had a lot of clownish tendencies. Over the next 8 years and many conversations I became a man that I was proud to say I was, I never stopped thinking of my father though and as the years became decades I still missed him more than ever.

It’s hard to think about the what ifs but I can’t hold on to that so I continue to keep him in my heart and hope that he is proud of the man I’m still growing to be. I thank God for the chance to know my father, it’s so many children that never get the chance and it’s a great privilege to say my dad was there.

To all the fathers that do their best, I salute you. Any guy can be a dad but it takes a man to raise his child. We don’t pick our children and they don’t pick us, it is a God given blessing and you should treat it as such.

I haven’t been blessed yet with the opportunity but I have one of the most important things that I asked God for before he bestows one of His greatest blessings upon me. A wife!!! I had no intentions of being a babies daddy. I will be a every second dad or I don’t want to be one at all.


I Should’ve

I should’ve paid more attention but it was a choice.
I should’ve listened to that very first voice.

I could’ve cared a little more but I wasn’t thinking about you.
I should’ve spent a little more time but hey you could’ve too.

I would’ve given my all and put my faith in God.
I would’ve been more patient but at the time that seemed odd.

I should’ve stuck to my plan and made sure that I saw it through.
I could’ve let God pave the way but I thought that I knew.

I should’ve been your rock but wouldn’t even let me be your pillow.
I would’ve been the one but you were acting like you didn’t know.

I should’ve learn the true meaning of love or at least what it meant to be your friend.
I should’ve let you know I was in a bad situation from the begin.

I would’ve bought you a card and flowers but what will that prove.
I should’ve stayed and cuddled with you but I wasn’t felling that grove.

I should’ve, could’ve and would’ve but that was all in the past.
I am, I can and I will because life is going to fast.